While I Was Still Here

I arise from my chair filled with the flavor of fatigue that only a Tuesday afternoon can weigh down on a person. Walking through the kitchen with a full bladder the sounds of "While I'm Still Here" fade

"Yesterday I found out the world, was, ending."

In it's place the blonde princesses voice from "Frozen" replaces it. She belts out "Let it go" to an empty living room.

Down the hall my teenage daughters door is in it's perpetually shut state. I gaze into my bedroom, my exhausted wife is passed out as Peabody explains something to at most one of my still conscious children. If either child was awake they never saw me, fixated on either the back of their eyelids or Peabody and whatever time travel adventure he's in the middle of.

After taking care of the only issue I can, flushing and washing my hands I return to my office and "While I'm Still Here Repeats."

"...A little more
Everyday
Falls apart
And slips away..."


I settle in to write this. My parched mouth reminds me I forgot to get a water refill while up. My trusty office mate, my dog, wants out.

I write until his whine tinged bark lets me know he wants back in.

I feel so lonely, I also feel heart burn.

My office mate must have had to take a leak too as he happily scurries back to his corner of the office, his legs seeming to move twice as fast as necessary to achieve the speed he attains. 

Every minute seems to disappear into the wasteland that is just another Tuesday afternoon.

"...These four walls are closing in

Ticking time is running out

Of all the things that might have been
Ticking time is running out...."

I'm waiting on a green light to put out my previous blog. It never got edited but I'm okay with that.
I wonder to myself what could await me when my time here is done for the day, after break is over.
My office mate is now asleep in his corner. I feel like I'm the only human alive in the world.

"God forgive me if I cry
Ticking time is running out"

The careless clock shows break is over. 

"Yesterday I found out the world was ending"

Time passes, eventually my cellphone springs to life indicating it is both the end of my work day and time for my anti-anxiety pill. The pill seems silly. What is there to be anxious about when you're the only one in the world who is still awake?

"While we can
Remember when
Always running
Even then

Stay with me
Hold me near

And I'm still here"