Favorite Song: Part 3

Almost six months ago I left off with songs that didn’t quite make the final four. This time I PROMISE I’ll wrap things up.

To review, the final four from the last installment are:

1. “Electric Heart” by Sia from “1000 Forms Of Fear”
2. “Slim Pickens Does The Right Thing…..” by The Offspring from “Days Go By”
3. “Heart Is A Drum” by Beck from “Morning Phase”
4. “Wood Chipper” by John Hiatt from “Mystic Pinball”

I remember where I was when I saw a bunch of twelve year old girls’ heads on boxes with wigs on singing while another danced about. I was about to get an MRI or a CAT scan or some other expensive test and Ellen was on mute in about the third waiting room I had been in so far. I remarked to my wife as I watched that I was getting old because I had no idea what I was looking at.

Later the song would come up as recommended in conjunction with a new interest of mine and another “almost made it” Lana Del Ray. I loved the song “Electric Heart”. I’m a sucker for edited chopped vocals. The tune was infectious and I listened to it A LOT. It got a heavy play count and so it made it on my list. Favorite song? Of course not. I led with the song, did you think I would just open up with the winner and then drone on for three pages? Nope. Sorry Dia.

The next song has roots in my first “favorite band”, “The Offspring”. I played my cassette copy of Smash over and over. Countless walkman double “A” batteries were lost. I also went back and purchased their previous albums. For a long period in my life I felt “Ignition” was the perfect album in that their was no filler on album. All the songs were awesome, at least to me at age 14.

Another interesting side note, the lead singer of the band, Dexter Holland, is why I grew my hair out. I wanted braids like his. Then when he lopped his hair off and went with the spiked look with the sunglasses…...you probably never wondered where that look came from but there you go…...

Aside from allowing me to steal heavily from his look, Dexter himself is a very interesting character. In addition to making hits like “Self Esteem”, “Pretty Fly For A White Guy”, “Come Out and Play” and so forth, he graduated as valedictorian of his high school, took a break after the mega hit “Smash” to finish his bachelor's degree in Biology, and get his masters and PhD in molecular biology from USC. He then co-authored scientific papers like “Identification of Human MicroRNA-Like Sequences Embedded within the Protein-Encoding Genes of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus”. In other words, he’s published papers detailing his breakthroughs with HIV/AIDS research.

He also is a registered airline pilot, flight instructor, skydiver, surfer, skateboarder, collector of a very specific set of stamps and he even created his own brand of hot sauce.

So being my first favorite band, influencing my style, cranking out albums that always manage to hook deeply into pop culture and shake it about violently as it should be….is that enough to make my list…(oh yeah and the AIDS stuff too)?

No, not quite. A little bit extra was still needed. Was this ‘extra’ to be found in John Hiatt’s “Wood Chipper”?

I remember just where I was, playing Minecraft and coming down with a cold. I had enough vacation days to take a whole week off every for my birthday at my old job. I was listening to his album “Mystic Pinball” for the first time. I was stopped mid pick axing as I swear I just heard the narrator get shot in the middle of the song. Yep...I sure did.

“One bullet to the head

Before I hit the ground I was dead

I guess I'm tellin' you this before you go fishin' now, Jimmy”

The rest is pure genius.

John Hiatt is like the human equivalent of “Dr. Stranglelove” it’s a movie you’ve probably never heard of, but it’s influence is so deep in pop culture that you know it better than you think you do. Some so ingrained that one clip and you find yourself saying “OH! THAT’S where THAT came from!”

Fun fact: The Offspring nominee? A direct reference to Dr. Strangelove, another reason it made the final four, anyway back John and that woodchipper…….

The story is a classic example of John’s dazzling ability to be relatable yet cut deep with simple yet powerful lyrics.

The grocery list at the end is nothing short of brilliant, almost comically humanizing a sad story so very poignantly yet making your heart ache all at once.

So is this textbook John Hiatt work of art the favorite song we’ve been after for all this time now? Nope.

That leaves just one song, Beck’s “Heart Is A Drum” with the last of the four this surely HAS to be the favorite song after ALL this time right……….

Well not so fast. In the long time I’ve been writing this 21 Pilots put out an album called “Blurry Face” full of painfully relatable songs including “Stressed Out” something that hits just about all my sweet spots. Fear of growing up, stressing out, worrying what others think despite a desire not to, not to mention razor sharp use of double meaning:

But it would remind us of when nothing really mattered

Out of student loans and tree-house homes we all would take the latter

Although I like to think of it like this:

But it would remind us of when nothing really mattered

Out of student loans and tree-house homes we all would take the la(dd)(tt)er

Mmmm….lyrical deliciousness.

Coming along just as I was struggling with my new job, all the stress involved, being an adult and the pressure of “You gotta make money” and this song could have very well snuck in and stole the show,....but did it?

No. Close, but no. If I was to pick an album I could relate to most it might just be “Blurryface” but it still misses that something extra.

Yes, Kayla (Remember her? She’s the one that asked me like a year ago and started all this?) my favorite song of all time is “Heart Like a Drum” by Beck.

It has everything. A narrative about the passage of time, dealing with aging, longing for youth all with a reference to percussion which has long held a special place in my heart. Something my loved ones have always said I had a knack for, drums. Speaking of hearts and drums:

“Your heart is a drum keeping time with everyone

Everyone, if they drown from the undertow

Need to find someone to show me how to play it slow

Or just let it go”

Long have I struggled with the idea of growing old and the desire to go back but being unable to. I remember being very young, in North Platte (so less than five), crying because I didn’t want to be an adult, I didn’t want to die, I didn’t want to stop playing. Yet my heart kept beating like a drum.

I know eyes will roll at this, but I truly believe I went through a midlife crisis at fifteen, when all my anxiety mixed with puberty and the realization that adulthood was less than a decade away. If I was lucky I would find a job and before I knew it….I’d get caught in that undertow. And the fact that I was miserable during this time,....made things worse.

Still, I soldiered on. Now I’m an adult and I hate it, just like I thought i would. The fact that I saw it coming at age less than five doesn’t help and I knew it wouldn’t which made it even harder at the time.

During this same time Beck’s “Odelay” hit’s like “a good drum break” and I loved it. I liked “Loser” too and that’s what ties all this into a big knot.

The video is one of those rare times where it couldn’t have been done any better, the symbolism is there, vague enough to make some lost and see Beck as being “Random” or “What kind of drugs is he on” while others can see through the haze to understand Beck’s classic Kaleidoscopic view of the world, in this case time.

Space men, the grim reaper, Beck peering in on himself, love, death. Beck walking alongside a guy dressed like him from the “Loser” video. The video is full of references to his first smash hit video from 1993. The spacemen make an appearance, this time repurposed to represent the future, Beck from the Loser video complete with stocking cap and dance from “Loser” representing his adolescence. The grim reaper is obvious. Although I didn’t notice until I rewatched “Loser” that even the grim reaper was also in “Loser” if only briefly. The young blonde boy, childhood (I would almost put money on it that “young Beck” is actually his real life son). All of these Becks take turns walking up that road while the drum keeps time. Even the guitar the old man plays and the casket he gets out of in the Loser video make an appearance, although the old man doesn’t. I would venture to guess that that guy is no longer with us as he looked pretty rough even in 1993. Could even his lack of appearance and therefore indication of his death be yet another reminder of our own mortality? Perhaps, or perhaps I’m reading too much into a small part of the video.

In the end they are all walking together, all headed in the same direction, no going back. The fact that they are walking away from the camera is no mistake either. What about the dying woman and the priest? I would go with lost love. Beck’s break up years ago while unfortunate for him made for some great heartbreak music, just a part of life and therefore death. The priest, I suppose representing religion, something all of us use to help deal with that always beating drum of life towards death. Simply, to deal with one's own mortality. The flower handed to the grim reaper, probably acceptance of that ultimate fate.

Stacked on top of all the meaning and deep personal connection to myself is the visual and musical gap of growth of Beck as an artist. The same guy who wrote “Satin Gave Me A Taco” and “Cut in Half Blues” has grown exponentially to “Heart is a drum”. I’ve been there for every album in between and never been disappointed. Each album is so different from the rest, so much fearless musical experimentation, yet never a let down. This juxtaposition, while perhaps not intentional, is just another reminder of how we grow and change as our hearts keeps time.

And the growing and changing doesn’t stop. Just when you think you have Beck figured out he drops “WoW” which harkens back to his Odelay days. Even if the song features what seems like trademark Beck meaning disguised in what appears to be irregular lyrics it’s not without references made by an older, wiser Beck:

“It's my life, your life

Live it once, can't live it twice

So nice, so nice

Smooth like a tidal wave, take you on a getaway

My friends, your friends

Livin' everyday like it's just about to end”

Continues:

“It's your life

You gotta try to get it right

Look around, don't forget where you came from

It's just another perfect night

We're gonna take it around the world”

Yes, around the world and back to that favorite song, that question, so many drum beats ago.

So Kayla, my favorite song…..Beck’s “Heart Is A Drum”. Sorry it took so long to answer kiddo. Enjoy your youth. May someone teach you how to play your drum slow….or….just let it go….